this year i am going to knit my valentine a smitten. knitting is a new found talent of mine, my friend ash taught me how, and i just know valentine will love it. what man wouldn't?

"I like flaws and feel more comfortable around people who have them. I myself am made entirely of flaws, stitched together with good intentions." 

-Augusten Burroughs

"Oh yes, the past can hurt. But the way i see it, you can either run from it, or... learn from it."

-The Lion King

did you see when bachelor jake sent two girls home monday and then dun dun dun... tossed the rose into the burning fire? i am not a tv watcher. other than greys anatomy, i  haven't sat down to watch the tele in over three years. but i have met my match- i can not get enough of this show. the girls are hilarious! and he is just the king of cheesy comments. a very sexy king but there are moments where i feel so awkward for them i have to just close my eyes and not watch! all the decisions are so dramatic and unpredictable and they all happen with the nice touch of various levels of high and low intensity background music. really what more can you ask for in a show? my mom and i have weekly chats after each episode and pick our favorites. tenley and corrie are mine. is anyone else loving this? favorites? and you don't think vienna has extensions do you? please nominate me next season.

once i was dating a great guy. he was honestly great. super genuine, really sweet, and liked me a lot. i liked him too. one night he was just being so nice and was trying to tell me how special i was. so... he said, 
"aubrey i have never met anyone like you. ever. i mean, think about it- what are there, like a billion people in this world? out of ALL of those people, there are probably only like (thinking...) a thousand girls like you"
(insert a couple seconds of silence) 
"a thousand?" 
he immediately realized his mistake
"NO! i was trying to say you're different.... ya know... bla bla" 
"my parents always told me i was special. that i was ONE of a kind!"
"..." loss of words
i guess a thousand out of a billion isn't all that bad?

"Girls do not dress for boys. They dress for themselves, and of course, each other. If girls dressed for boys, they’d just walk around naked at all times."

-Betsey Johnson

i lost my phone and was looking ALL over my little apartment tonight! i was getting a kinda frustrated since i was running late for dinner with a friend and well, there is just not too many places to search in this tiny place! no luck. so i left anyways and my friend and i found each other, phew. when i got home my roommate greeted me with my phone in hand... it was in the fridge. awesome. welcome to my life. ps. isn't this fridge the cutest thing ever? when i get my new place this spring i think i'm going to have to find cute wallpaper and be a copy-cat.

i boarded airplanes seven times in december and when i finally landed back in new york city my stomach felt like it was full of glitter and helium! i just love it here. all the chaos is comforting and i miss it all when i'm not around. to the west coast it always seems to shock them or be so foreign or weird. i don't ever bring up that i'm from the city for this reason. it always comes up and don't get me wrong, i never mind. i am really excited about all my goals and accomplishments. i've worked really hard to be where i am and to be doing what i am doing. new york city is so good to me, by far the best bf i've ever had. i belong here. vacation is always refreshing no matter where you live and coming home is always the best. 

unpacking is not fun. does anyone like it? and coming home after been gone for a long time and having NO food too. i bought milk on my way home last night at the corner store and then woke up from my nap after church to find out all my cereal had been eaten. don't you love roommates? i decided i was going to steal to get back at them- it's really the mature thing to do, and was quickly reminded they have bad taste. the only thing i could find that sounded tasty was cookie dough. so i took a spoonful and now i'm off to buy some good food, another thing to love about the city- there is good food on every corner. don't worry new york i will never cheat on you again.

now that the holidays are over, cold is completely unacceptable. spring please come soon. so we can watch the flowers bloom in the park and soak up all the sunshine in cute suits.

"as for you, my galvanized friend, you want a heart. you don't know how lucky you are not to have one. hearts will never be practical until they can be made unbreakable."

 -the wizard of oz    

these women are three of the most loving + giving + wise women i have ever met. and we had fun chatting all night long. jesse and i were spoiled getting to hang all by ourselves with just them three. such. a. treat. i could sit for days and listen to all their many stories and adventures.

i love you. love always, your favorite niece (wink)

brag much?

our salon made over a few pages of this months allure. that was a very long day in the salon. and victoria- the colorist i assist was named one of their top recommended colorists in the nation. she even got her picture printed in the november issue. and even though she is used to this kind of attention, it's still a good reason to celebrate! hip hip vic! i just love you so much!

i've gotten that i reminded multiple people of summer before but i always just thought it was the bangs or something. until 
he said 'have you seen that movie...' and 
i said 'yes, i love it. sometimes though, people tell me i remind them of her which is weird because i am not a hater of love and commitment' to which 
he replied, 'you are a lover of hate and commitment. but that doesn't mean we like you any less'
in my defense- i love love. and i like commitment. and most importantly- i love her bangs. 
and then we sipped hot chocolate with stale marshmallows while watching the city lights glow in the dark. 
which then made me wonder? was he teasing about me being a summer? or was he really a believer of love and trying to convert me into one too?

remember that time you left a single sunflower by my doorstep? with a tag + my name handwritten on it? it took me weeks to find out who you were, and once i did my bf did not like it one bit. well, thanks. i forgot to say it. but i meant to cause it was real nice. 

the next day my bf bought me a whole bouquet.

he said, 'you look great in them... standing still' and another he on another occasion said, 'uh...' flats are spilling out of my closet and are worn and ragged and i love them. and my heels sit real pretty in perfect condition. i love them. looking at them. when i slip them on my toes i still love them. and then i start to move my feet... 

this year i am going to learn to walk in heels.