happy easter!

the Easter bunny found me in New York City this year. he wasn't quite as extravagant with the gifts as norm but i still feel so lucky because that's a long way to hop with a giant Easter basket strapped to your back!  

growing up is funny for me sometimes, because it helps me realize how naive I was as a little girl. i never would have known I was spoiled at all or that the holiday characters that visited my house and granted my wish lists were the best of the best; until i moved all the way across the country and celebrated without any of it. who woulda' thought an Easter without cellophane, an endless supply of real eggs to color, a basket stuffed to the brim with your all time favorite candy, $ Easter egg hunts, and real live bunnies and chicks hidden in the back yard wasn't an ordinary Easter? bless my little girl heart, i just had no idea!

this year i was spoiled with good friends and sunny weather in the city. we all dressed up in pastels and ate an Easter feast outside on the patio. i <3 spring!

i'm a vegas tourist.

i went to the mumford and sons show on friday. the venue was so incred. it was outside on the. most. perfect. night in vegas and up high so we had a view of the whole strip and could watch the show on a big screen in addition to the stage. we also had to stand in the longest line i have ever stood in to get in. i mean loooooong. i picked my friend up from the airport and he didn't have checked luggage or anything else to slow us down so we could be quick and then when we arrived we were pointed in the direction to get wristbands and it just kept going around and around so many corners. and then around some more. and we started laughing because it was boarder line ridiculous. it took us (walking at a brisk pace) a good ten minutes to get to the end of the line. thankfully i had really good company, it made the time pass so quickie and was well worth the wait. times two. or three or four.


we did some shopping, shared a really yum lunch and fondue at max brenner and then laid out by the pool. it was like i was a tourist. i kind of am these days i guess. because then we went to a fancy italian place for dinner before we saw Jersey Boys. that was fun.


on sunday we went to church like saints. then we ditched the last two hours because we had VIP passes to the pool called REHAB that i guess is so much fun it even has a television show named after it. we parked and walked up to the front of the line and stood there for a minute and then turned around and walked out because just the line was enough for us to get our fill of people watching. in my defense, i had not seen the show prior to this experience and i do not have any desire to after. i had no idea thong bikinis were "in" in the states? is it judgemental for me to say that it's usually the girls that shouldn't be wearing such scandal are the ones who usually do? actually... now that i'm really  thinking about it, that girl deserves some serious props for all that confidence. good for her! (really)


we got our tan on at another pool and then played tennis and had a BBQ at chad and marleahs. she's a chef and it tasted so tasty. i strive to one day be able to host such a fabulous dinner party outside on the tennis courts with homemade everything and individual sized desserts. 


if you think our tourist weekend in vegas could be complete without a roller coaster ride, you're wrong. we went to the NY NY to get a fix and were totally tricked by (spoiler alert:) that first dip. the second one is the big one guys!! riding next to a grown man who screamed kinda like this fat kid made me laugh so dang hard. the tears would not stop rolling down my face. i swear. i kind of wish i had bought the key chain picture so i could prove it to you right this minute. 


hot tub time, a movie with popcorn, and then eating strawberry popsicles at the park with weston. this trip to las vegas has really been a good time. and it's not even over yet!

i quit.

i quit my job on thursday.

i have known for a little bit now that it is what i wanted to do, i was just waiting a little so i could say bye to my favorite clients and have one last month of love for what i do. 

everything has been feeling so settled to me for a while and i just felt too young for that. i really believe in sucking the very best out of life and ceasing every moment and opportunity and so before i get too tied down i decided it was time to be a gypsy for the summer and travel the world. 

it was probably the most bittersweet moment of my life thus far. i have worked so so incredibly hard over the past three years to be where i am at in my career and walking away from it broke my heart. it so much more of a happy thing though than sad! you see, if i had stayed at my job for the next five years i know that so many great things could happen for my career, financially, and the experience would be great. but you have to understand, i worked ALOT. and weird hours. and with no time off. and for a little bird whose wings are aching to fly away, it would be hard to have all of that success at the expense of balance in my life and time to travel and do everything you should while you are twenty two. 

i did it. i moved  and i trained and i worked my little bum off and i became a color specialist at one of the best salons in new york city. and i am walking away a stronger, wiser, and more talented woman with such an incredible story to tell. 

there are so many adventures i have planned for my near future and i am just sure that this day dream of mine is going to be the best reality ever!! i am so excited to explore this giant world! and am so grateful, as always, for everyone who is so loving and supportive. 

i am in vegas right now enjoying the sunshine and getting kisses from the cutest little boy in the world. doesn't this pic just melt your heart? he has definitely stolen mine. 

hello world

i guess i should blog so people don't think i died.

i am alive! and i am so happy. life has been really great to me and i've been doing lots of fun things. mostly working, having lots of gf time and waxing a friends chest hair on the side. i wish i could post the pics but i wouldn't want to destroy that friendship. so, i'm hoping it'll be just as funny to tell you he had a freudian slip while i was ripping the hair out of his big burley chest and called me mom. which felt super weird and incredibly hilarious at the same time.  my roommate and i laughed until it hurt. and then it stopped being funny and started feeling guilty. but once you start you don't dare stop! especially when there is such a good looking chest to uncover!

i went to utah a few weeks ago and got to see so many loves in my life! i miss them dearly and it was oh so good to catch up. everyone seems to have babies or are growing babies or are planning on growing a baby soon since i was last there and it was refreshing to talk about life and all the silly things in my life compared to all the grown up things in theirs. i really have the greatest friends ev.

makell was such a dear and let me stay with her and this is the only pic i got while we were waiting at dinner for the sumo girls. it looks like i have a smooshed black eye but she looks like a beauty and i love her. she is so dependable and rolls with the flow and gets excited for my life with me and we laugh and play words with friends and stuff. bianca came too, who i have a serious girl crush on. she brought twins growing in her belly and looked as gorgeous as ever. she gave me the best advice of my trip that i really needed to hear that night. thanks B.


i got to see em-face and just talking to her on the phone about meeting up made me almost pee my pants with excitement! we drove around in sheila and stalked some boys like the good ol' days and we laughed and laughed and rekindled our lesssbian love affair (not really, we're straight. we just say that because saying bf's just doesn't do us justice)

i got to see some fam which always is a treat and on and on. it was really great and i loved it. i wish i had more crappy iphone pics but a girl can only have so many resolutions at once. as obsessed as i am with new york city, a break every once in a while surrounded with only the best of friends and family, feels like a long nap without any lost time. (sigh, that feels good)

'little lion man'

nathan steven usher is so hilar'. i just laugh so hard sometimes i think i may vomit and it's such a good feeling even though it has the word vomit in it.  i'm really good at documenting his life. i always whip out my iphone v. cam and film him like he is a movie star.  I have liked to keep it on the DL because if he got discovered I wouldn't have him all to myself. but sometimes pics just don't do the boy justice. i wish i had a video of his drop-it-like-its-hot-move but this vid of him flipping an omelet, for the first time in all of his ancient life, is my all time fav. (mostly because of his "proudest moment of my life" face at the end. you'd think he was holding up his first born son)

yep... skillZ.

nate made fun of his mom once for falling and getting a black eye and his coordination has been downhill since. he's fallen twice with me and  both times landed flat on his face because his hands were in his pockets. he is a tall giant so it makes it twice as funny as an average sized male and i bust up laughing every time. i'm super weird around him and he still likes me and i never ever let him take naps because i just poke him so he'll play with me instead of sleep. ( i hate napping) he says it drives him crazy but i know he actually loves it. 

anyways, i have a lot of hilar' vids of us doing all of the above but I don't want to build you up too much when you read this just to bring you crashing down when I tell you we broke up. it's true. he's the sweetest/hottest/hilar' guy ever and I couldn't commit. sometimes I just feel like a kid and want to play for the rest of my life. I am so in love with this man and feel bad that I tricked him into being my best accessory for so long and then bailed because i got scared. I wish I could think of something terrible to say about him so he doesn't get snatched up real quick and break my heart even more but I can't think of anything right now. lucky me for having him as my lovebird for the past year.

I know what some of you are thinking, BIG fail aubrey. grow up and marry the man, you are twenty two and twenty two is not that young! well to me it is. and I believe our lives are what we make them and right this very minute I'm not ready to make that choice. i guess I'll just be sad.

so that's my update. that's what's been going on.  he sang me a improv break up song on his guitar and i secretly videoed that too but i hold it too dear to  my heart to post. (it will  make you laugh. it will make you cry) I've been doing lots of taking cabs to work so I don't have to sit by strangers in the mornings, listening to mumford and sons, eating king size kit kats in one sittings, and today I made myself a peanut butter and jelly sandwich convinced it would cheer me up but then I just ended up with crumbs in my bed and an ugly cry face.

im so sad you'd think the bachelor just sent me home and then at the girls tell all reunion show the girls ganged up on me and told me I was a bad mother! (brats) but that didn't really happen, me and my bf just broke up and I am human so I am sad. having sad days and trying to make sure I didn't make a gi-normous mistake by letting him slip through my fingers instead of letting him put a ring on my finger. I've been worrying about what if i made the biggest mistake of my life and wonder what a tragedy it would be if I one day pop a kid out and it looks just like nate! my baby's daddy would be so confused and then I would know for sure I messed up because my kids were created in heaven with the right guy and then i made a MISTAKE and chose the wrong lover and God sent them to me anyways since they were already made! ah tragedy!

(i know that doesn't really happen) but the thought did linger in my brain a little longer than i would have liked. we would have made hot super model children (does everyone think that before they reproduce?) who knows! maybe this world will spin around and we'll be meant to be! just in another season. until then i'm the new loner who is missing her best friend.